Today was a new day..

Last night I was a mess... I was just done, emotionally and physically. I wanted to give up so badly and just go back to the way I use to be. I woke up in a bad mood and annoyed that I only had a 2 hour delay and not a full day off. But I got up, packed a salad for lunch with some cheese as a snack, cleaned off my car and headed in. I was still a wreck when I got to work and found my self in tears as I explained my night to my co-workers who all hugged and told me to just relax. I also had a sore throat and was afraid I was getting sick on top of it all. But my co-workers really pulled me up out of my mood, made me laugh and helped me get back on track. I honestly don't know where I would be without them sometimes and I am SO lucky to have found such great friends!

Tonight my dad called and asked me if I wanted to come over for dinner, even though we have dinner planned for tomorrow. He knew that I'd still be exhausted after yesterday and is always up for spending some extra time with me. So I went and ate, panicked a little after I realized I had no idea what he was having but it was pork, green beans and mac and cheese. I took a little bit of each, even had some bread along with it. It was nice to just sit and relax, watch some TV and talk with my family about the stress of life. I came home and immediately changed into work out clothes and did my second day of Jillian's 30 day shred and it felt great! I jumped up and cooked dinner for my boyfriend which I will use for my lunch tomorrow.

I have to learn how to get this emotional eating under control but I was proud of myself that I didn't just give up today that I tried again, in the past I would have just gotten take out for lunch and had the "who cares" mentality. It's a slow process and I know I will beat this food addiction!

My picture tonight is of a bathing suit I'd REALLY like to wear this summer. I haven't worn a bikini since I was in middle school and even then I only remember wearing it briefly. I am thinking about hanging it up on my wall as motivation....