Need a break!

Today started out really well and then I decided to get some chick-fil-a for lunch but went with the grilled chicken sandwhich then I went out to dinner with some friends.

I just got really sick of my job and I really wanted to "escape" for awhile, but why do I do it with food!? Why can't I find another way? no exercise still... I'm just so exhausted all the time now, not sure what is wrong. Even when I try to go to bed early my mind is running through the things I need to do, the bills that need to be paid, my car that needs to be fixed, the work that needs to be done. It just feels like SO much right now.

I am really struggling to get through this week and I have a super busy weekend that will be spent running all over the place. I just want a little while to breathe and take a break. I have a staff meeting tomorrow night, family dinner friday night, babysitting saturday and then a get together saturday night. I wish I could just PAUSE for one second.

I am really struggling at work, it's such a negative place and since this is the only field I've ever been in I don't know if this is what I'm good at, if this is what I want to do, or if this is the only thing I know. I hate how NEGATIVE it has been lately and how RUDE people are being, I can only take so much. We just had transitions and this is always difficult for children but this time seems really hard. Plus there is Pink Eye going around my classroom and I keep trying to clean as much as possible but today I feel like the parent blamed ME for their child getting it.

These are the time where I fail horribly and I just need to pick myself up and move on from it. I need to exercise and eat better and just get happy again.

My picture tonight is of a little snack I had when I got home... 2 caramel delights, the girl scout cookies! These will always be in my life no matter how healthy I am!