FRIDAY! finally!

It's FRIDAY!!!!

I really really was looking forward to this weekend because of how rough things have been at work and today made it no easier. I would have called today a huge success except for this afternoon. Like I said things have gotten rough at work and today people were being just mean. I got so worked up that as I was serving afternoon snack (vanilla wafers) I started eating some, then more and more before I knew it I lost track and one of the other teachers shouted at me saying "AMY STOP LOOK!" I didn't even realize how fast or how much I was eating and she told me to go take a break our of the classroom and relax for a minuet. She is being so supportive of me and always knows when I need to just go breathe for a second.

Other then that my day was actually pretty good even though I went out on my break with a friend, I ate the lunch that I had packed and didn't even grab a snack while out. Family dinner was a little harder but I'm still eating a lot less then I was a couple months ago.

I have a full packed day tomorrow and I like that I'm busy because that means I'll be moving a lot! I am babysitting a child from my class and I'm looking forward to just playing and having a good time. Then I'm going to a "sell your gold" party a friend is having, to try and make some money and then going out to bar with some friends to watch a UFC fight. In between all this I plan on:
*Eating healthy
*Drinking LOTS of water
*Move and keep moving
*Make smart choices

Then sunday it will be all about rest and routine...we do the same thing every Sunday and I love it! But it also involves sleeping in and spending some time being lazy together which I love!

My picture tonight is something I wish I would do more often because it makes me feel so girly. I love have my nails painted or painting my own even though I'm not very good. I'm going with a midnight plum tonight!

A bad start to a bad day...

So today was one of those days that from the moment I opened my eyes I knew I was in trouble! I woke up SUPER late! Thursday's I am suppose to be at work by 7am to open my classroom, I woke up at 6:35, usually when I am getting ready to leave. I grabbed clothes, threw them on, grabbed my makeup and I was out the door. For SOME reason last night I didn't prepare, I didn't pack lunch or snack or dinner for the staff meeting and didn't have my clothes out.

I did manage to grab some already cut up strawberries to have and was out the door, didn't even give my car a chance to warm up. I made it there 7:00am on the dot, luckily no kids were waiting for me and I had about 5 minuets to do my make up and collect myself.

Then I remembered I had NO food, GRRR! So no breakfast for me, I ate the strawberries around the time the kids eat their lunch and just settled on grabbing lunch somewhere. I went to wegmans and got a roasted veggie wrap. It had 4 pieces in it, I ate two then and planned on eating the other two for dinner. I wasn't even really that hungry because I was so off my eating schedule, I hate that! Well after work I usually drop an infant off at her house because the mom doesn't get in until 6pm. I forgot about my staff meeting so I had to take her home, of course the mom was late and I was late to staff meeting. Didn't even have a chance to grab my dinner out of the fridge. I drove home FUMING from the staff meeting and luckily had some dinner already made. Some thin pork chops baked with a little BBQ sauce. I also grabbed a pouch of mixed veggies that steamed in the microwave. Still had to figure out dinner to make for my boyfriend, found a simple salsa chicken that I could bake while I relaxed for awhile. I WILL pack this for lunch tomorrow along with some snacks and I WILL have a better day!

Other then that I did get good news that I am being granted a meeting with our town's chief of police about some concerns I have about our town. We've had a lot of incidents at the park and parking lot across the street from my apartment. I emailed him, the borough manager and our mayor about them. So I am taking a stand, meeting with him and hoping to make SOME progress, also thinking about running for a position on our council.

Today was a bad day but I'll put that in the past and it will stay there!!! On to a better day!

Tonight's picture is of my favorite drink and one that is helping me stay SODA FREE! I love the taste of this and only having one little glass with dinner doesn't seem to be hurting me. LOVE IT!

Need a break!

Today started out really well and then I decided to get some chick-fil-a for lunch but went with the grilled chicken sandwhich then I went out to dinner with some friends.

I just got really sick of my job and I really wanted to "escape" for awhile, but why do I do it with food!? Why can't I find another way? no exercise still... I'm just so exhausted all the time now, not sure what is wrong. Even when I try to go to bed early my mind is running through the things I need to do, the bills that need to be paid, my car that needs to be fixed, the work that needs to be done. It just feels like SO much right now.

I am really struggling to get through this week and I have a super busy weekend that will be spent running all over the place. I just want a little while to breathe and take a break. I have a staff meeting tomorrow night, family dinner friday night, babysitting saturday and then a get together saturday night. I wish I could just PAUSE for one second.

I am really struggling at work, it's such a negative place and since this is the only field I've ever been in I don't know if this is what I'm good at, if this is what I want to do, or if this is the only thing I know. I hate how NEGATIVE it has been lately and how RUDE people are being, I can only take so much. We just had transitions and this is always difficult for children but this time seems really hard. Plus there is Pink Eye going around my classroom and I keep trying to clean as much as possible but today I feel like the parent blamed ME for their child getting it.

These are the time where I fail horribly and I just need to pick myself up and move on from it. I need to exercise and eat better and just get happy again.

My picture tonight is of a little snack I had when I got home... 2 caramel delights, the girl scout cookies! These will always be in my life no matter how healthy I am!

1st of the month... body pictures

Let me first say that I didn't think this out very well lol I planned on doing whole body shots every 1st of the month and that I would get my boyfriend to help me take the picture, well DUH he works second shift and was only home with my the 1st of Jan because of the holiday, so I had to take these myself. I am sure that having the different angels, and not being able to have some one take the picture doesn't help me see tiny differences but it was the best that I could do.

Now let me say that I see just about NO change. Maybe a little on my front view, but that's about it. I did however notice some change in my face, it is looking a little thinner and my neck looked longer today. Plus I am feeling more comfortable in clothes and that is really important to me. So while I didn't have fantastic changes this month I'll continue to work harder. I know that I didn't really push 100% with my exercise and that's what I'm going to change this month. I have to dedicate time EVERY day no matter how tired I am. Even if it means I go for a walk, out in the cold, during my lunch break. Tonight I am really tired and feeling a little sick but I promised myself that I would do at least 10 minuets, so after this blog I am going to pick an ONDEMAND video.

I had a good day today, I have noticed that I am not feeling tired until about 4:30-5:00ish when it use to be at like noon I was dragging and by my break I was figuring out if I could take a nap in my car. But my tiredness doesn't really hit me until the end of the day and I think a lot of it has to do with just how relaxed and quiet it gets. So I've been feeling really good about that!

I am still SODA FREE!! This is the biggest accomplishment I have made so far, I really didn't think I could make it this long and it's getting easier and easier every day. I've even gone out to eat and drank a water. I drink LOTS of water now and sometimes I mix it up and let myself have some ice tea.

I am still working on my exercise but I've been proud of my eating habits and I have more up days then down. Of course I still snack a little here and there and maek some slip ups but I'm human. I don't want to be perfect because I know that's not how life is. You get thrown curve balls and you have to learn how to deal with them. That is what I hope to show children when I get my youth fitness certification. I may not have the perfect body but I work hard at making healthier decisions and at being healthy.

I will also use the 1st of the month as my weigh-in... guess who forgot to weigh in Jan 1st? That would be me, so we are starting from February 1st!

02/01/11 (8:30pm)- 149.7lbs

Front (Jan 1st/Feb 1st)


Side (Jan 1st/Feb 1st)


Back (Jan 1st/Feb 1st)

Fruits and Veggies!

Today was a long long long day... I worked 7:30-5:30 and then babysat 5:30-7:30 came home made dinner, cut up some veggies and made my lunch for tomorrow.

I went to produce junction and grabbed a bunch of stuff... 2 bundles of asparagus, 2 pints of cherry tomatoes, a box of spring mix lettuce, a bundle of carrots, 4 cucumbers, a box of peaches, and a pint of strawberries all for about $14. It was so nice to get FRESH food and not pay a ridiculous amount of money for it. I came home and cut up a cucumber and chopped about 5 carrots and put them all in a baggie. This way when I want to make a salad everything is cut up, or I can just grab some from each bag and take for a snack.

I made a spark people favorite tonight, mini cheesy meatloaf and grilled some of the asparagus to go with it. I also chopped some asparagus and mixed it with an egg for my breakfast tomorrow, also taking some sliced strawberries for a snack. I was really proud that I came home and did all of this before I turned on the tv.

Problem now is I'm exhausted, want to take a shower and just go to bed. I really don't feel like exercising and I don't know what to do, my motivation is just not there. I will say that I was super proud of myself because when I came home I was so hungry (didn't plan on babysitting tonight so I was not prepared), that I really just wanted a quick snack to get me through dinner. There are still left over egg rolls in there, and I was SO tempted to grab one, but I said NO I can snack on some of my veggies and wait for dinner to be done. I did it, I turned down an egg roll!!

My picture tonight is of the goodies I grabbed today!

Chinese food

So last night is the usual night we order out or go out for dinner and where I am more relaxed about what I eat. My boyfriend had to work late and so we just decided on ordering from a new chinese place. I haven't had chinese food in a really really long time. I went with my usual sesame chicken , added brown rice and an eel and avocado roll. I planned on dishing it out to make 3 meals out of it so I wouldn't over eat. I didn't even touch the egg roll that came with it. I really did well eating my portion and stopped myself. An hour later I as doubled over in pain, horrible stomach cramp and so nauseous. I got in bed, tried to sip on some water and was back and forth to the bathroom feeling like I was going to throw up. I felt horrible and cursed my bad decision but I wasn't sure what was making me sick. Food poisoning? the stomach bug that is going around? Or was it my body punishing me for eating this crap?

I finally fell asleep and woke up feeling good then I got up and started moving and it came back instantly. All I had today was a soft pretzel that I shared with my boyfriend and some chicken broth. I also had a gatorade which seemed to help. WORST I have felt in a really long time. Lesson learned...stay away from the chinese food!

Today's picture is my faithful water bottle, it's a camelback one with a straw I drink about two of these during the day. I've been forgetting it at work on the weekends but remembered it this weekend, and didn't use it. BLAH! But I really LOVE this thing!

A trip to the mall...

So I made a trip to the mall and actually tried clothes on.... it's really not as scary as I make it out to be. I hit 3 different stores and left with two shirts, a tank top and two bras. I tried on a pair of 11 skinny jeans and they were cute but big, they were stretchy so I guess that's why. I tried on a pair of 9's and they were tight, not something I'd feel comfortable wearing around in public really. But I was happy with what I saw, got both my shirts in mediums which is nice.

I ate my breakfast while at work, and was there for about 2 hours and managed to finish my classroom just leaving one board out in the hall way that I need pictures to finish, so that has to wait until Monday.

While at he mall I had a salad for lunch and a 1/2 icetea 1/2 lemonade for a drink. I was really craving a soda and this helped quench my sweet tooth. Then I went off and walked the mall for about 2 hours. I still have to fit in a workout tonight. Plus figure out what to make/do for dinner. We will probably eat out/order out as we usually do and I'm just not in the mood to cook. I had a hard time finding a parking spot because of church and a local bar so it put me in a bad mood. I even fought with my boyfriend about it, stupid I know. I am hoping that I won't let me emotions rule my food choice tonight!

My picture tonight is of one of the shirts I brought and I think with jeans it makes a cute, comfy outfit!