Failure

First I owe an apology to JESSICA1999PA because I didn't exercise today... I'm sorry to let you down.

This won't be a long one because I can't barley type, I am just so annoyed and upset. It was a bad day at work, I got in trouble about something and then all hell broke lose which included me eating 10, yep that's right 10, organic chicken steamed dumplings. I was saving them for dinner and lunch tomorrow... I ate them right along with a roasted veggie wrap. I felt HORRIBLE afterwords and still do.

I can barley think about food but there was nothing left out for dinner (my fault) and I have no motivation to make anything, I may just order something for the boy. I feel horrible and disappointed and I'm heading to bed now. I feel like such a failure tonight :(

Superbowl!!

So tonight is the SUPERBOWL! We are spending the game with my sister, her husband and my nephew! We already ate and only have some chips and dip, guacamole and salsa to snack on, but I'm going to try and stay away really.

Today was our usual relaxing sunday, grabbed a few new things at the store to try and see if I like them. I picked up some of those greek yogurts mixed with fruit. I picked up a peach, a strawberry and a pomegranate one. I also picked up something new from Kellog, potato crisps, look like potato chips and they are sour cream and onion flavor.

I am still feeling good, SODA FREE, taking my vitamins but still not getting in exercise like I should. My plan is to come home tomorrow and do another day of Jillian's 30 DS! Hold me to this so I can't get out of it SparkFriends!

Well here is the one thing I will indulge in tonight at my sister's house! Not sure which one I will eat yet!

Making that money

So I was very busy today, I had to babysit from 10-3:30, stop by my sisters and then head to a gold party from 5-7. I was running around all day babysitting and it was a lot of fun, she is a great little girl and keeps me on my toes. While there I tried one of their greek yogurts mixed with fruit and I think I'm going to pick up some tomorrow at the store from a snack or to help bulk up my breakfast.

I ended up selling a couple items at this gold party and made $178! My sister made $170!! Some was given to my grandmother so I am taking her out to dinner or lunch next week! She sounded excited to spend sometime with me, we are extremely close and when I was unemployed I use to go to lunch with her all the time and go for walks around a local park, I really miss that.

I decided that I will use the left over money to help pay for the certification for youth fitness. I will be able to pay one month and after that I'm just going to have to figure it out but I know this is what I need to do. Work has been way to stressful for my health and I know I'd be good at this.

I felt good today and I need to remember that even thou my weekends are for relaxing, being active helps keep my mood up and I feel even MORE relaxed.

Tonight's picture is of the outfit I wore today, the jeans are old a size 11 from a couple years ago and a cute new shirt I got from Target on sale for $10. It's super comfy and I felt really good in it!

FRIDAY! finally!

It's FRIDAY!!!!

I really really was looking forward to this weekend because of how rough things have been at work and today made it no easier. I would have called today a huge success except for this afternoon. Like I said things have gotten rough at work and today people were being just mean. I got so worked up that as I was serving afternoon snack (vanilla wafers) I started eating some, then more and more before I knew it I lost track and one of the other teachers shouted at me saying "AMY STOP LOOK!" I didn't even realize how fast or how much I was eating and she told me to go take a break our of the classroom and relax for a minuet. She is being so supportive of me and always knows when I need to just go breathe for a second.

Other then that my day was actually pretty good even though I went out on my break with a friend, I ate the lunch that I had packed and didn't even grab a snack while out. Family dinner was a little harder but I'm still eating a lot less then I was a couple months ago.

I have a full packed day tomorrow and I like that I'm busy because that means I'll be moving a lot! I am babysitting a child from my class and I'm looking forward to just playing and having a good time. Then I'm going to a "sell your gold" party a friend is having, to try and make some money and then going out to bar with some friends to watch a UFC fight. In between all this I plan on:
*Eating healthy
*Drinking LOTS of water
*Move and keep moving
*Make smart choices

Then sunday it will be all about rest and routine...we do the same thing every Sunday and I love it! But it also involves sleeping in and spending some time being lazy together which I love!

My picture tonight is something I wish I would do more often because it makes me feel so girly. I love have my nails painted or painting my own even though I'm not very good. I'm going with a midnight plum tonight!

A bad start to a bad day...

So today was one of those days that from the moment I opened my eyes I knew I was in trouble! I woke up SUPER late! Thursday's I am suppose to be at work by 7am to open my classroom, I woke up at 6:35, usually when I am getting ready to leave. I grabbed clothes, threw them on, grabbed my makeup and I was out the door. For SOME reason last night I didn't prepare, I didn't pack lunch or snack or dinner for the staff meeting and didn't have my clothes out.

I did manage to grab some already cut up strawberries to have and was out the door, didn't even give my car a chance to warm up. I made it there 7:00am on the dot, luckily no kids were waiting for me and I had about 5 minuets to do my make up and collect myself.

Then I remembered I had NO food, GRRR! So no breakfast for me, I ate the strawberries around the time the kids eat their lunch and just settled on grabbing lunch somewhere. I went to wegmans and got a roasted veggie wrap. It had 4 pieces in it, I ate two then and planned on eating the other two for dinner. I wasn't even really that hungry because I was so off my eating schedule, I hate that! Well after work I usually drop an infant off at her house because the mom doesn't get in until 6pm. I forgot about my staff meeting so I had to take her home, of course the mom was late and I was late to staff meeting. Didn't even have a chance to grab my dinner out of the fridge. I drove home FUMING from the staff meeting and luckily had some dinner already made. Some thin pork chops baked with a little BBQ sauce. I also grabbed a pouch of mixed veggies that steamed in the microwave. Still had to figure out dinner to make for my boyfriend, found a simple salsa chicken that I could bake while I relaxed for awhile. I WILL pack this for lunch tomorrow along with some snacks and I WILL have a better day!

Other then that I did get good news that I am being granted a meeting with our town's chief of police about some concerns I have about our town. We've had a lot of incidents at the park and parking lot across the street from my apartment. I emailed him, the borough manager and our mayor about them. So I am taking a stand, meeting with him and hoping to make SOME progress, also thinking about running for a position on our council.

Today was a bad day but I'll put that in the past and it will stay there!!! On to a better day!

Tonight's picture is of my favorite drink and one that is helping me stay SODA FREE! I love the taste of this and only having one little glass with dinner doesn't seem to be hurting me. LOVE IT!

Need a break!

Today started out really well and then I decided to get some chick-fil-a for lunch but went with the grilled chicken sandwhich then I went out to dinner with some friends.

I just got really sick of my job and I really wanted to "escape" for awhile, but why do I do it with food!? Why can't I find another way? no exercise still... I'm just so exhausted all the time now, not sure what is wrong. Even when I try to go to bed early my mind is running through the things I need to do, the bills that need to be paid, my car that needs to be fixed, the work that needs to be done. It just feels like SO much right now.

I am really struggling to get through this week and I have a super busy weekend that will be spent running all over the place. I just want a little while to breathe and take a break. I have a staff meeting tomorrow night, family dinner friday night, babysitting saturday and then a get together saturday night. I wish I could just PAUSE for one second.

I am really struggling at work, it's such a negative place and since this is the only field I've ever been in I don't know if this is what I'm good at, if this is what I want to do, or if this is the only thing I know. I hate how NEGATIVE it has been lately and how RUDE people are being, I can only take so much. We just had transitions and this is always difficult for children but this time seems really hard. Plus there is Pink Eye going around my classroom and I keep trying to clean as much as possible but today I feel like the parent blamed ME for their child getting it.

These are the time where I fail horribly and I just need to pick myself up and move on from it. I need to exercise and eat better and just get happy again.

My picture tonight is of a little snack I had when I got home... 2 caramel delights, the girl scout cookies! These will always be in my life no matter how healthy I am!

1st of the month... body pictures

Let me first say that I didn't think this out very well lol I planned on doing whole body shots every 1st of the month and that I would get my boyfriend to help me take the picture, well DUH he works second shift and was only home with my the 1st of Jan because of the holiday, so I had to take these myself. I am sure that having the different angels, and not being able to have some one take the picture doesn't help me see tiny differences but it was the best that I could do.

Now let me say that I see just about NO change. Maybe a little on my front view, but that's about it. I did however notice some change in my face, it is looking a little thinner and my neck looked longer today. Plus I am feeling more comfortable in clothes and that is really important to me. So while I didn't have fantastic changes this month I'll continue to work harder. I know that I didn't really push 100% with my exercise and that's what I'm going to change this month. I have to dedicate time EVERY day no matter how tired I am. Even if it means I go for a walk, out in the cold, during my lunch break. Tonight I am really tired and feeling a little sick but I promised myself that I would do at least 10 minuets, so after this blog I am going to pick an ONDEMAND video.

I had a good day today, I have noticed that I am not feeling tired until about 4:30-5:00ish when it use to be at like noon I was dragging and by my break I was figuring out if I could take a nap in my car. But my tiredness doesn't really hit me until the end of the day and I think a lot of it has to do with just how relaxed and quiet it gets. So I've been feeling really good about that!

I am still SODA FREE!! This is the biggest accomplishment I have made so far, I really didn't think I could make it this long and it's getting easier and easier every day. I've even gone out to eat and drank a water. I drink LOTS of water now and sometimes I mix it up and let myself have some ice tea.

I am still working on my exercise but I've been proud of my eating habits and I have more up days then down. Of course I still snack a little here and there and maek some slip ups but I'm human. I don't want to be perfect because I know that's not how life is. You get thrown curve balls and you have to learn how to deal with them. That is what I hope to show children when I get my youth fitness certification. I may not have the perfect body but I work hard at making healthier decisions and at being healthy.

I will also use the 1st of the month as my weigh-in... guess who forgot to weigh in Jan 1st? That would be me, so we are starting from February 1st!

02/01/11 (8:30pm)- 149.7lbs

Front (Jan 1st/Feb 1st)


Side (Jan 1st/Feb 1st)


Back (Jan 1st/Feb 1st)