Day 3 of pictures!

So today was a pretty successful day and stuck to my eating plan except for two cookies at work...those holiday treats are still lingering around! I came home and tried some exercise videos on-line but I just couldn't get into it. I tried to stand as much as possible today, and moved around with my children whenever I had the chance. I forgot my water bottle but did manage 3 glasses of water with my lunch! I allowed myself a glass of sweet tea with my dinner but I'll stick with water for the rest of the night.

Here is my picture... Sparkrecipes! I am signed up on www.sparkpeople.com and this site has saved me many many times! This page didn't only help me with tonight's dinner but helped me plan the rest of this weeks meals... THANKS!

My food

While I lived at home with 5 other people I had learned to stash away my own healthier food because some people just didn't get it! Even though it's just me and my boyfriend I find my self doing the same thing! I have one drawer in the fridge that I keep my own healthier snacks and we split the cabinets into sides. He has also committed to being healthier but this is about my break up not his :D

Last night I made the break from 3 pairs of jeans...they didn't hug me the way I needed to be and who doesn't want to be hugged :D Instead I traded them in for one pair of much younger (11s!!) who liked to hug me ALL over! I got many compliments on my upgrade and I think these one's will stick around for a while!

My old fling gym called me today but I'm just not ready to see him yet... it's been MONTHS and every time I make plans to see him I get so nervous, anxious and what if people I know see us together!! I am determined to see him at least once this week and I want to work hard at making our encounters LESS awkward for me.

Another fling...boy I have a lot of them.... Mr. Scale. I was seeing him multiple times a day! As soon as I woke up, as soon as I came home from work, before going to bed...and during the weekend it was up to 5 times a day! Now some people will say that was overkill but I had to make sure that I was keeping things consistent but there were plenty of time he was just awful to me! I had a very serious talk with him last night and we decided that we should try once a day...then down to once a week and then I would like to stop it at just once a month. He was shaken, he even refused to work with me for a couple minuets....but I know it's best for me and him!

Here is my pictures of the day.. My healthy drawer in the fridge

Pictures!

So here are the pictures!! I decided that doing body shots by myself is nearly impossible (thanks babe for the help!) So this is how I will post pictures. Every 1st of the month I will post full body pictures, front, side and back views. Everyday I will post a picture of something I am doing to get healthy...the food I'm eating or buying, the workouts I am doing or something that inspired me. Here we go....

New Year New Blog!

So I FORGOT that I was even suppose to being blogging about my break up until I decided what one of my goals for 2011 would be! I want to start a picture blog, where I take a picture EVERY day for a year. Weather I am feeling good, sick, or just plain BLAH, I want to take pictures to help track this year. The good, the bad and the ugly! So let me catch you up on my break up with fat!

As of this morning my friend/enemy or as I call it my frenemy the scale had me at 148.7lbs! That's right I officially broke up with 150, but over the last couple of weeks we see sometimes at night before bed...what I can I say, I just can't get over 150 yet! I was able to go out shopping and grab a medium in a top and a...wait for it.... A SMALL!! Now I guarantee this was miss labeled or something because there is NO way it's a true small! I am okay with that, but it's given me great motivation for reaching a REAL small.

I recently moved into an apartment and the first couple of weeks went really well, but now that life has caught up with me I have NO energy to cook or go to the gym. It's difficult to just get through the day sometimes and when I come home grabbing fast food is much easier for me. So it's become another item on my addiction list: McDonalds, french fries and diet coke!

As of right now I can stop the McDoanlds and MAYBE the fries but I just can't give up my diet coke, I am NOT ready for that break up. I tried it once and it left me physically ill! But I know one day I will be strong enough to leave that abusive relationship!

I will be taking my FIRST picture of 2011 very shortly and posting it here as another post.... let's see what 2011 looks like :D

Where have I been?

Well it's a hard questions to answer :D

I recently started working full time again and have been thrown some major curve balls by that thing called life but I am working through it all. My breakup has been going FANTASTICLY and I am currently down to 155lbs--which is just about 2lbs shy of losing 20lbs since really starting this journey. Now I look back and see I have been at this for almost a year, but have taken time off for various things that are just life and can't be avoided. Sometimes I am disspointed that I haven't lost more but it's more then that number on the scale.

I had to dump MULTIPLE pairs of jeans, and trade them in for younger ones, and it's true....the younger the better. Many of my shirts were asked to leave my closet and not return, I'm finding I acutally like ones that cling a little more.

I am running still, and hope to complete another 5k in the next upcoming weeks, and have found a true love for just being healthy. I like being able to walk by a mirror and not cringe at the things I saw, but now a smile can come across my face and I know starting my breakup was the best thing for me :D

Biggest Loss yet and new jeans

Okay so I was dreading two things today: Jean shopping and my weigh-in. After having not such a good weekend with food decisions, and house/dog sitting I felt like I hadn't done much. I also loss my last pair of jeans that fit to a dog. So I had to fit in jean shopping today which I consider my own person hell.

Let's start with the weigh-in. I was one of the first one's up today, and was glad to have some privacy as I turned my WiiFit on. I was nervous, and stood as still as possible thinking only skinny thoughts and first it shows you your BMI, which my had lowered. Okay this is good I thought but then it shows my weight..... 151.5! That is a 8lb loss from last month. I am STILL in shock about it. I knew I was doing lots of walking with work and keeping as much as I could on track with my food, but sure I had at least stayed the same. This really shot my motivation in the right direction!

Next on the list of thigns was jean shopping....I really wasn't looking forward to this at all. I HATE jean shopping, it usually turns into hours of me trying on different pairs of jeans, and leaving very depressed because nothing EVER fits. We decided to hit Old Navy since they were having a sale. I went right to the jean section, picked up three different styles in two different styles. A size 10 and a size 12 took six pairs to the dressing room..... I FOUND three pairs! Two of them were a size 12 and one was a size 10. I now have three pair of good fitting jeans and am VERY comfortable in them. All in all today was a FANTASTIC day for me, emotional wise. I finally feel like I am seeing a difference, I have been feeling it but not really seeing it. And I can't wait to continue on my journey. I am feeling HEALTHY finally for the first time, in a long long time :D

Temptation in my face...

literally, I had a McDonald's bag shoved in my face today! Today we were on a field trip to the Crayola Factory, which really wasn't worth the almost two hour drive, and then lunch time came. I had managed to keep so busy I missed all of the MCDOANLDS signs, until half of my counselors got up and left. The smell hit the room before they did and I was intoxicated. My eyes darting around the room trying to find the culprit of this most amazing smell I haven't smelled in forever. "Look what I got for lunch" a counselor threw a bag of greasy fries and burgers right in my face. My mouth was watering, I actually had to pat it with a napkin to keep myself like looking like a fool. Right there before my eyes she poured the contents on to the table and devoured in, I sat watching eating my strawberries and for a couple mins felt complete and utter jealously.

But as the day went out and I had tons of energy to keep up with my kids, I was glad I had my healthier lunch and with-in an hour had forgotten completely that there was even a Mcdonalds right next to me. I ran around with the kids, making sure we got as much done as we could and before I knew it, it was time to go. Packing on the bus sitting across from other counselors I smelled it again and thought maybe I was just have like a reoccurring dream, but not there it was again.

That greasy bag, filled with what use to be my favorite items to binge on. French fries, salty and greasy. A cheeseburger, with the melted cheese and loads of pickles and a 6 piece chicken nugget, complete with honey dipping sauce. I groaned as I thought there was no way I was going to last this bus ride home with out breaking down and asking for her to share. But instead I took out my book, turned my back to the bag-o-grease and read. For almost two hours, I just read, listened to my kids and eventually the smell and temptation went away. Of course on my ride home for work I was tempted as I passed the three I have to pass to get to my sisters house, but I just kept driving. This is the first time EVER that I have turned down something so tempting that was so easy to access. Any other day I would have had it for lunch, and probably grabbed a snack for the bus ride home. Today I was triumph over Mcdoanlds, and right now I feel like I could take on the world :D