I Broke

I knew as soon as I woke up this morning that it was going to be a rough day. 7:45am comes and my alarm is going off....I didn't even attempt a snooze I just hit off. The next thing I know it's 9am and I am slowly pulling myself out of bed.

While I made it down stairs and made myself oatmeal I was still feeling...tired. Tired of tracking my food, of hitting the gym and feeling better. So I cheated and hit the scale I had a gain of .04 so that's not even a pound but that damn + sign was enough to throw me off all day.

I still managed to do just a couple exercises at home, and hit up saladworks with my grandmother for lunch. Come dinner I was just so tired, I feel like I could just break down. Pasta and bread, so yummy.

But then I came home to bills, bills I can't pay. My cell phone, my car insurance, the water bill, food. I can't make it and I am so over trying to find a job. I just lost it...one pack of Little Bits fudge brownies, left over Mac and Cheese from last night dinner, and a big old COLD diet coke...I feel just worse.

This being "thin" thing is just a lot harder and I just want to throw in the towel....