Where oh Where...

Have I BEEN!?

Well it's called life and it may be a poor excuse but it's all I have right now. I got really sick and was achy and sore everyday. I was coming home almost in tears because I just hurt so much. I didn't care about what I was eating and exercise wasn't even in my vocabulary. I didn't get to run the race on Mother's Day because I was so sore and sick, it was one of the HARDEST decisions I had to make, I still regret it.

Finally went to the Dr and she started me on medicine for treatment of a relapse of Lymes. 3 days later I woke up with a swollen upper lip and mid day the right side of my face was numb and tingly. I was told to stop the medicine for 2 days and then start it again. They wanted to see if this was a reaction to the medicine or a side effect of my lymes. I started them medicine 2 days later and 2 days after that BAM! swollen lower lip and some numbness and tingly feelings. Called in a new medicine which I should have started today but because of the most common side effect (tummy issues) I wanted to wait until I wasn't so busy. I'll start this tomorrow...promise.

Today I tried on bridesmaid dresses and a size 10 fit me, snuggly. I want to be able to wear a 10, be comfortable and have no arm/back fat showing. There is a picture of me at my sisters wedding with HORRIBLE arm/back fat and it haunts me to this day!

I start school on Tuesday which throws a wrench into life but I am going back to working normal 8 hour days instead of those 9, 10 sometimes 11 hour days. I won't be making that money any more but it's what my body needs!

Tonight I had a good moment at dinner.. I was able to stop when I was satisfied, and left some of my food left over. It was very hard because I suffer from "empty plate" syndrome but I talked this situation out loud with my boyfriend and ended up getting them wrapped up.

It's REALLY odd feeling satisfied and not stuffed, sick or over full. I really tried to eat slowly and enjoy each but of my dinner. It was lobster ravioli very yummy, not the greatest choice but I'm not perfect, I'm still learning!