Okay so I was dreading two things today: Jean shopping and my weigh-in. After having not such a good weekend with food decisions, and house/dog sitting I felt like I hadn't done much. I also loss my last pair of jeans that fit to a dog. So I had to fit in jean shopping today which I consider my own person hell.
Let's start with the weigh-in. I was one of the first one's up today, and was glad to have some privacy as I turned my WiiFit on. I was nervous, and stood as still as possible thinking only skinny thoughts and first it shows you your BMI, which my had lowered. Okay this is good I thought but then it shows my weight..... 151.5! That is a 8lb loss from last month. I am STILL in shock about it. I knew I was doing lots of walking with work and keeping as much as I could on track with my food, but sure I had at least stayed the same. This really shot my motivation in the right direction!
Next on the list of thigns was jean shopping....I really wasn't looking forward to this at all. I HATE jean shopping, it usually turns into hours of me trying on different pairs of jeans, and leaving very depressed because nothing EVER fits. We decided to hit Old Navy since they were having a sale. I went right to the jean section, picked up three different styles in two different styles. A size 10 and a size 12 took six pairs to the dressing room..... I FOUND three pairs! Two of them were a size 12 and one was a size 10. I now have three pair of good fitting jeans and am VERY comfortable in them. All in all today was a FANTASTIC day for me, emotional wise. I finally feel like I am seeing a difference, I have been feeling it but not really seeing it. And I can't wait to continue on my journey. I am feeling HEALTHY finally for the first time, in a long long time :D
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Temptation in my face...
literally, I had a McDonald's bag shoved in my face today! Today we were on a field trip to the Crayola Factory, which really wasn't worth the almost two hour drive, and then lunch time came. I had managed to keep so busy I missed all of the MCDOANLDS signs, until half of my counselors got up and left. The smell hit the room before they did and I was intoxicated. My eyes darting around the room trying to find the culprit of this most amazing smell I haven't smelled in forever. "Look what I got for lunch" a counselor threw a bag of greasy fries and burgers right in my face. My mouth was watering, I actually had to pat it with a napkin to keep myself like looking like a fool. Right there before my eyes she poured the contents on to the table and devoured in, I sat watching eating my strawberries and for a couple mins felt complete and utter jealously.
But as the day went out and I had tons of energy to keep up with my kids, I was glad I had my healthier lunch and with-in an hour had forgotten completely that there was even a Mcdonalds right next to me. I ran around with the kids, making sure we got as much done as we could and before I knew it, it was time to go. Packing on the bus sitting across from other counselors I smelled it again and thought maybe I was just have like a reoccurring dream, but not there it was again.
That greasy bag, filled with what use to be my favorite items to binge on. French fries, salty and greasy. A cheeseburger, with the melted cheese and loads of pickles and a 6 piece chicken nugget, complete with honey dipping sauce. I groaned as I thought there was no way I was going to last this bus ride home with out breaking down and asking for her to share. But instead I took out my book, turned my back to the bag-o-grease and read. For almost two hours, I just read, listened to my kids and eventually the smell and temptation went away. Of course on my ride home for work I was tempted as I passed the three I have to pass to get to my sisters house, but I just kept driving. This is the first time EVER that I have turned down something so tempting that was so easy to access. Any other day I would have had it for lunch, and probably grabbed a snack for the bus ride home. Today I was triumph over Mcdoanlds, and right now I feel like I could take on the world :D
But as the day went out and I had tons of energy to keep up with my kids, I was glad I had my healthier lunch and with-in an hour had forgotten completely that there was even a Mcdonalds right next to me. I ran around with the kids, making sure we got as much done as we could and before I knew it, it was time to go. Packing on the bus sitting across from other counselors I smelled it again and thought maybe I was just have like a reoccurring dream, but not there it was again.
That greasy bag, filled with what use to be my favorite items to binge on. French fries, salty and greasy. A cheeseburger, with the melted cheese and loads of pickles and a 6 piece chicken nugget, complete with honey dipping sauce. I groaned as I thought there was no way I was going to last this bus ride home with out breaking down and asking for her to share. But instead I took out my book, turned my back to the bag-o-grease and read. For almost two hours, I just read, listened to my kids and eventually the smell and temptation went away. Of course on my ride home for work I was tempted as I passed the three I have to pass to get to my sisters house, but I just kept driving. This is the first time EVER that I have turned down something so tempting that was so easy to access. Any other day I would have had it for lunch, and probably grabbed a snack for the bus ride home. Today I was triumph over Mcdoanlds, and right now I feel like I could take on the world :D
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